Summer. 2010

Ohmygoodness. Summers over and I started my senior year. I can tell I havent been on here in a while. Well anyways my summer was absolutely amazing I had a steady amazing job that i love. I spent every free moment with my amaizng boyfriend and who this summer bought me a ring and asked me to be his fiance in which i said yes too. I know I know Im still so young but im in love and its just not young love. =) its true. I have been hanging out with new people and I feel I am fighting depression. My life is so good right now. I wouldnt change it for the world. I feel like i have found myself. and for that i am thankful =)
Peace** Breanna =)

There comes a point in your life when you realize things get better.

Things are really getting better. I have focused on what really makes me happy. Its not the people who I once thought were friends. It is my family and my true friends and boyfriend that mean the most to me. People come and go. But the ones that stick with you are the very best. Some people will learn eventually that they need to change somethings and who they hang out with to actaully amount and be who they want to be in life. I love my life at the moment and I am never going back to the way it was a couple of weeks ago.

Clearly Written by a Homo

Breannas life was clearly written by a homo. and sometimes when her friends go to her house her dad decides to drink their mt dew which is just pretty darn strange!! also when at breannas house it is very important that you paint her stuffed animals and steal some of her clothes. Failure to do so will result in very bad things such as being locked upstairs and beaten with mashed potatos. Breanna also finds it fun to go to Terre Haute and talk to randon boys, this is also an activity i enjoyed!!

My pinky hurts...

ok so things have been good =) i have been spending alot of time with my boyfriend which is awesome. my older sister had surgery on tuesday. she had her galbladder taken out. my mom said she was rather mean afterwards and wanted to know where the clowns were. which i thught was funny. bre and geneva came over last night and brought shelby a gift. friday is both of my sisters graduation party. my little sister graduates middle school and my older sister graduates high school. we are having a huge party at the hanger with a dj and everything, its going to be awesome and its till midnight. then a bunch of people are staying the night afterwards at my house. and right now i got to go soon cause i have a doctors appointment and i want dairy queen =) really bad yumm

True Friends

I have figured out who my real friends are. Friends are not immaute and will always be there for you. I am tired of drama. I am tired of getting in trouble. The people i used to hang out with are bad influences and cause way too much drama for me. I am diagnosed with deppression and i do not need to be pulled into anymore drama. I know that I have made mistakes in the past but I have been good lately and I am done with people who cause me to change. They were never really my friends. I am glad that there are people out there who accept me for who i am. I feel like the old friends I am talking about make bad decisoions and I am no longer willing to be apart of there crew. I am done. and i am happy about it.

{Prom}

Prom was absolutely amazing. Caleb came over around 2 and we both got ready at my house. Then my mom took pictures of us. Then we went to calebs house and had to get pictures with his family. Then we went to the high school for grand march and that is where I met his Grandparents for the first time. It was sort of nerve racking. But anyways then we went to terre haute and then we got lost in what looked like the ghetto. and i didnt know they had ghetto's in terre haute. The dance was absolutely amazing. On the way to after prom we got pulled over. that was also rather nerve racking. I was kinda scared. Then we finally got there and it was rather boring. Then we had to drive to Kansas to take my sisters date home. I ended up driving home from kansas because my boyfriend ended up asking if the road was ending. kinda scary or atleast i thought so.. anyways it was a good time

Blahish times.

So this weekend I was grounded the whole time. But Breanna still had fun, yes she did. =) anyways friday I went to work and didnt go home till like 7 because I didnt want to go home and be grounded so my boss let me stay a little while longer to help her with some stuff. Me and her son who is 21 ended up making my boyfriend mad at me because he thought I was cheating on him with her son =) it was funny he had my phone and was texting caleb. ha anyways I am not cheating on him although a 21 year old who was in the navy WOULD be nice. ha ha me and him went outside and talked and did something that i can not menetion.. because i dont smoke. ^-^ but then i went home caught up on some homework thats not due until like idk when but i wont have to worry about it when the time comes.! Sat. i babysat one amazing lil kid. lol he goes to my daycare and is so cute.! Then I rented movies and me and my older sister watched them together. I also read alot. Then sunday. ..... Yeah sunday was fun =) Ashley and Bethy =) later

You have been hacked!!

So Breanna sees leprechauns and plays leap frog with unicorns. Her best friends Beth and Ashley and she does extremely goofy high pitched voices to imitate them.. she does not succeed though. She likes to walk up the stairs at school and smell peoples butts. she has once said, while doin that: "smells like chicken".... Breanna likes to dress up in a bathing suit for old people with depends diapers on her head. then she will sit in front of her mirror and sing into a banana... She sings funky town and strips down while talking to my mom in the bathtub.. K bye pamela!!! just picture breanna when u have a bad day

Lately..=)

Lately things have been amazingly crazy.! Caleb and I got back together a few weeks ago. Although I dont think my mom likes it very much. She doesnt want me to get hurt. But I think shes going to have to get used to the fact that I am growing up and I am going to start making my own decisions. No matter what the consquences are. Also lately I've been feeling like I havent been there for my best friend. Beth is going through some hard times and I fell like we never hang out or let alone talk as much. Even though she supports all of my decisions past and present. Shes been there for me and I feel as though I havent returned that same amount. Also Mary doesnt like my desicon on taking Caleb back and she has every right to. So me and her arent that close anymore eihter. My little sister hates Caleb with a passion. I think its because she thinks Im screwing up my life. But she doesnt know the way I feel about him. I love him with all my heart and no one can stop me from it now. My parents are seperated now. And the other night I took off from home and went down to my dads new apartment. Its not as nice as it could be but oh well. Also I have quit smoking because my boyfriend also has to. Or else he could be sent to jail for 60days if anything comes back on his drug test. Which would not be good. So we are quiting together. Welp anyways Im going to get off. Peace

SpringBreak 2010 =)

So I started off my spring break bad considering I had to make a decsion... but nothing else about that. And it has ended good. Last week I went to mattoon all weekend Then i got back on Sunday. Sunday Mary came over and we hung out and had a pizza and movie day.Monday I had to go to work. I work from 5 a.m. till 5 p.m. The rest of the week went by rather slowly considering I had to work every day except Friday.Thursday night Mary stayed the night she colored my stuffed animals it was rather funny. Friday Mary and I went to Terre Haute and spent our paychecks shoppin. We went to alot of places which included my favorite place-The Mall. That day was rather interesting considering I had 2 guys ask for my number.! how great is that? lol it was so much fun.One guy was really hot too. Then we got back to paris around seven that night because Mary was supposed to babysit. Saturday morning I had to wake up early because my family and I went down to Brown County State Park and stayed in a Cabin there the rest of the weekend. Me and my sisters had our own private cabin. Our parents had their own too. (yes my dad went, yes we all got along for two days.)we gott back late sunday night. We are going to the Garden of The Gods this coming weekend so i hope this week goes by fast.

Skirts and Flip Flops in 47 Degree weather

Mary has a thong thats as yellow as a school bus. It could be yellower. However I'm not sure and I really would not like to find out. Anyways. I dont understand how some people seem to think you will put up with they B.S. and their lies and still expect them to be your friend. They have no respect for you or your views on certian things. Its rather immauture. So I have decided to move on from this and surround myself with people who have the same views as me and who I can hang around with and not be invovled in trouble.
Me Ash and Mary wore skirts and flip flops in 47 degree weather!!!!!

Most Fun lunch

Ok so today Marys boyfriend ditched her at lunch and so Ashley Mary and I called my mom and she bought us Mickey D's. She went and got our food and Me Mary and Ash went to circle k and got drinks then we went back to my house took our butt load of nuggest and sweet n sour sacue up to my room. Mary had never been in my room let a lone my house. So when she went to my room she was surprised I guess. I guess she liked my room. Anyways we all sat up there and ate food and then I have a mickey mouse hat from when i went to disney world and mary made me put it on and they took pictures of me =) We are now the 3 best friend that anyone could have the three best friends that anyone could have ( off the hangover) lol. no but seriously we have decieded to go out and eat more. We is going to Chinese tomorrow =)

Yepp

I love it when people say they are your friend and then something happens and they no longer give a flying anything. And then they act like your in the wrong when in fact you never even done anything and then they believe other people over yourself. I just dont get it. I didnt do anything wrong but oh well nothing off my back =)

Hurt..

So i am now single. He hurt me one to many times and I finally had enough of it. I found out some things from my best friend that he "said he was going to tell me" Not very good. He hurt me in so many ways and I let him in my heart. He broke my heart. He will tell you i broke his heart but you should see both sides before you take sides. I loved him. He was like my own personal drug. I lost many friendships because I fell for him hard. I know I will probalby be back with him soon because I want to think that I will always love him and he will never lie to me again. But research shows guys are dumb and if you have found one who is amazing and perfect please give him my number.Everyone says i could do so much better. But i dont want to because hes all i want. I knkow im the one who broke up with him so i shouldnt be complaining but i dont know anymore. I left town this morning after having a breakdown crying session in homeroom. I went and told my mom that i would like to go stay with my aunt who lives in mattoon for a few days because i didnt want to be in paris she let me go so im here. It makes me feel better to be away.

My dad..

Ok so everybody knows that my dad is a touchy subject for me. And this is taking a lot for me to write. But I feel that I need to and it will get some things off my chest. When i was like 7 years old my dad quit his job as President of the Union at the ceral mill here in Paris. He left my mom, two sisters, and I. Since my dad had a good paying job my mom stayed home and took care of me and my sisters since Shelby (the oldest) was born. When he left he went out to Nevada to get this other woman younger than him that he met on the internet. Thats when I started having all these problems I guess. He came back and him and my mom got a divorce and went to court over us girls. But he obviously didnt want us which was fine with my mom. We had from noon to six on sundays to spend time with him. Well thats if he would come get us half of the time he didnt. He wasnt paying child support either. He was on drugs but i found that out later cause at the time i just wanted my dad back. The one who loved us girls. The daddy i would jump into his arms when he came home from work and had a smile on his face. The one who taught me how to ride a bike. When he came back and acutally picked us up on sundays he would always say "I'm not your dad, I left him in Nevada." Once he got rid of the girl who broke his family up he found another "winner". Yeah she didnt last long. I didnt like her and I told her she had a hairy face. Because well she did.Then my dad tried to get clean from all the drugs and drinking. And went to this rehab in Terre Haute for a while. He was doing really good and he acted like he cared again and all this stuff. So when he asked my mom to remarrie him. She said yes, out of the fact thats what my sisters and I wanted. So they got remarried on Christmas 2005. By the summer of 2006 dad was back on the drugs. He didnt have a job and once again would come home whenever he wanted to. He "tried".he said at least. But i never knew when to believe him. SO not soon later my mom kicked him out. He lived with this guy who had a huge afroish type thing. I totally misjudged him. He ended up being a better dad to me than my own. Then my dad came back to live with us once again. He got a job and was starting to act better but he still wasnt off the drugs and drinking. And when it came to everything i was the one who always got screwed over. He was never around on my birthdays. Never there for me when I needed him to be. He took of to colorado one year with some girl this was here recently like my freshman year. Wasnt there on that birthday either. But hey go figure.! Now to this day. He doesnt live with us walked out once again. Hes on drugs and I really could care less of him. I am now 16 years old and I dont believe in marraige becasue of my dad. Im diagnosed with deppression. I talked to him the first time in three months yesterday seems to have forgotten me. Bad thing is he accused me of stealing his money and his drugs. I keep all my feelings in. Like ice. I just dont see why someone would want to leave a family with a loving wife and three beautiful daughters. No love for them just the love for a drug. Anyways my mother has done an amazing job raising us three girls on our own and i am very proud of her.

Boredum strikes again.!

Ok, so yeah I know its Saturday night and I'm writing on here. Its very addicting. =) Anyways I just got home from seeing a movie with my boyfriend. We seen Dear John and it was very sad. I still want to read the book though.! When we got back me and my boyfriend and my little sister were in my kitchen and we had a bag of marshmallows. If you knew us: haveing a bag of marshmallows is not a good idea. So we started by tossing them in the air and trying to catch them then we moved on and tried to make it a game and try and catch them in eachothers mouths. My mom told us if we made a mess then we had to clean it up. lol so we did. it wa a big mess. then my boyfriend did his funny things which made my little sister laugh until she had to go to the bathroom and her eyes were watering. =) funny times when your bored are the best.
More updates later!
-Breanna-=)

Hmmm...

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Ok, so things are going good. My weekend was good. My parents are getting another divorce. Havent seen my dad in like a month. Like he even cares though. He'll be dead by the time im ready to walk down the alse for my wedding. If he doesnt care about me then why should I care about him? He has been in and out of my life many of times. So its not like it really bothers me..? Then sometimes I think about alot of things about my life and I seem like its pointless. But then I think that I love my life and its amazing so its like make up your mind. I think I could possibly be Bipolar. But my moms trying to get me on deppression meds. Ohh well Im just a teenager with mood problems. Supposedly at least. I dont know. I have amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend. So im happy. Most of the time. I gonna go read now but ill talk to you later.!!! Peace out

A simple Update

So nothing new really about me. Fighting with an supposed "friend" because she cant stay out of my bussiness. But Im more mature than that so Im not going to talk about that. This week has been tough sorta. But hey whats new? Anyways were going to Champaign again tonight Shelby has to try on her dress that had to get altered. So we are leaving soon after school and the boyfriend might get to go with. Ok now on to other things. Reading books! Ellen Hopkins is an amazing author and I fall in love with all the books i have read by her. I have read Crank and Glass and Burned now i am reading impulsure. which is gooda nd somethings i can relate to in many ways. ok done talking for now. Peace out.!

My weekend with mis familia.

Over the weekend we went to Champaign.. yeah we go out of town ALOT. I think it is because my mother hates paris..., although it may be because she hates my father too.? I'm not really sure nor do i care. Anywho we left paris around 4 after school on friday. ( I had a detention or we prolly would have left earlier.) So we get into the small rental vehichle since our S.U.V. is getting new brakes and worked on. it sucked the small vehichle. we had all our shoppin stuff. and stuff we had from the hotel on us since it was so small. we stayed two nights at the Dury Inn. went swimmin seen some hott guys. they were muy caliente. what else...? hmmmm. alot of other things but yeah idk what esle to write about. im really hungry and the thought of spaghetti in english makes me want spaghetti for supper. yum...!!

MARYS BIRTHDAY

so just to let everyone know.. one of my bestest friends's birthday is coming up. Mary is goin to be 17.! how awesome is that..!? Her birthday is on saturday.! hahahhahahahaha what should i get her what should i get her???? idk hmmmm.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARY...!!!!!

MUCH LOVE
BREANNA!

Radom.....

So I don't necissay get in trouble. Do I? I dont plan on it sometimes things just happen. Like its not my fault my mom doesnt like my boyfriend. Or anything along the lines of me being with him. And I hate it when i fight with people. Not physically like punching people but like verbally. i mean things just sometimes happen. I dont like it when my boyfriend does something to make me mad or the other way around i dont like to fight with him. But things just happen you know. Anyways I have to get my grades up so i can prove to my mom i can actually do better. I could get sent off to live with my aunt in mattoon which i dont want to happen. Well Valentines day was really good! My boyfriend got me bunches of things.! I loves him.!
-Breanna-

Being Grounded sucks..

So for the last week Ive been on Norman house lockdown. No phone. No nothin. All because of something that happend like 2 months ago. Well my mom found out something that she probably shouldnt have and i got grounded for 2 weeks. This means I only get to see/talk to my boyfriend at school. This is horrible and majorly unfair. Because I finally got him and have been in this relationship for 3 weeks and not being able to see him outside of school makes me feel like bad things are going to happen between us. Hopefully this will last for along time. Im falling. but anyways he has nothing to do with me being grounded...wait.. actually he does since he was there. But so was Bethy. and some other unmentionable people =) but anyways. The bells going to ring soon. and beth just called me and ashley Tuscan-virgins since we have never ate at Tuscany's? wow beth. ok. Peace Out.

Why does life suck? Or does it?

Has anyone ever asked you why does life suck? Probably not. So here it goes. Why does life suck? Now you have offically been asked the question. Do you have an answer for me? Didn't think so. Anyways I'll tell you why I picked the topic. So I got grounded for some unmentionable things that my mom just found out about the other day. Bad thing is I'm getting in trouble for something that happened almost three months ago. Why its such a big deal, I don't know but it angers me. Also I don't get to see my boyfriend for two weeks only at school. Which is just lovely. Plus the only time I actually get to see my boyfriend at school is at lunch. So when i got called to the office and told me I had lunch detention for the next three days i was beyond mad. But funny thing is my boyfriend got three days of lunch detention too.! =) ha what now.? Life still sucks though. Plus cops suck. View Betherys blogs for more information on the popo.

Parents

Sometimes I wish that parents would understand how their teenager feels. Growing up is hard and they want us to believe that they know how hard it is. Well they forget and we are living in a different generation and times have changed. Also if a woman has more than one kid she shouldn't expect them all to be perfect should she? And when your parents say they are in love and they know how it is to be in love, but they won't let you love the one that you love? It's all so complicated. Then they are always on you about how you should be a better person. Then when you try it just all backfires on you again because your parents push your buttons so far to the point of just wanting to leave the house and go somewhere where your more comfortable at. These things they think they understand but they don't. Sorry for venting in a mean way, but like seriously sometimes life sucks and you just want to be left alone.
-Breanna Norman-

My Best Frann

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Hello there friend. Breanna here, so I dont know what to really talk about so I'm gonna tell you about my best friend in the whole entire world.! Her name is Beth Moore. Shes an amazing friend. Shes been there though so much lately. She helps me with my problems and is really good at calming me down in rough situations. I love the fact that we know what eachothers thinking ALL the time. We finish eachothers sentences all the time. She practially lives with me and I love it. She wakes me up in the mornings and if i dont get up she talkels me and then procedes to drag me out by my teeth. Ha.! When were together and someone texts us were like wait who could it be your here. She got me listening to rap music ahhh. She has corrupted me but in a good way. =).. We stick by eachothers side no matter what. Well imna go. More to come later.!
Peace,
Breanna.!